My InTeRaSTinG LiFe

Most interesting weekend

2008-05-12T06:17:55Z

Hmmm...

Friday - Went to a youth group thing for my friends church with Mindy, because he invited me. Pretty interesting, but got strange when the guy started talking to everyone about things i didn't necessarily agree with. So Mindy and I left and I took her out to dinner at Garduno's as a graduation present.

Saturday - Johnny's going away party at Lena's house, most fun listening to music, watching drunk people act gay (literally), playing beer pong with Kazra on my team (Go Team UNM!!!) "Lost at the end however" , and really enjoyed myself for the most part.

Sunday - My car broke down on the incline of the hill of the bridge on San Pedro going southbound. Called Pi for a jump, that didn't work. Called Jesse for some gas, that didn't work (Thanks Macky, for paying for the gas tank and gallon of gas anyway). As we planned to push the car, many people stopped to see if we needed assistance, Macky and I shooed them away. Then along came Edwin and Clay in their car wanting to see if some random guys needed help, which turned out to be me (How convenient). We pushed the car up the hill part ways, and police came and helped me push the car to the Madeira house.

Yeah, definitely an interesting and, in a sense, an awesome weekend. Some things could have been better, however.

Favorite Alcohol

2008-04-08T21:21:43Z

So, whats your favorite alcohol? Doesn't matter if it's beer, liquor, wine, whatever!!! Just, what is your all time favorite? Put a picture of it up

Dramatic Gopher

2008-04-04T20:08:53Z

Yeah, i'm that bored here

Why Does Depression Strike when there need no reason to be?

2008-02-15T19:53:50Z

Can anyone answer my question? When you don't have a reason to be depressed, why do some people feel it anyways?

Comic Books...

2008-02-05T23:29:58Z

Oooo... Dang i love dem comics... Stupid pi, i love you for getting me addicted to comics, because some of the ones i've read are amazing, including House of M, One More Day, and Kingdom Come. I hate you, however, because i'm so addicted to reading those books, that i have to set time aside to go to your house and finish them. (Which isn't necessarily a bad thing). Thank you for letting me read your comics, you are freakin awesome.

Life eh?

2008-01-28T06:34:31Z

Well, i certainly am enjoying myself, doing random things around the mall, and doing random things to people i don't know in tilt and whatnot. Friday night, i was grabbing some Panda Express at about 8:35, because i was starving so bad i left work. As i was walking back to tilt, there was this guy with loud music, dancing in front of macys. I take a closer look and i recognize the guy, so i go running up to him, i set down my food, and i start dancing against him in the middle of the freakin mall!!! I won, and god there were quite a bit of people watching us, and they were telling me how good i was, and it made me feel so good. I feel a boast of confidence in myself and i want to keep hanging out with friends and doing random things and such (and get drunk again, woo!!!).

In spite of how good i feel right now, i still feel like there is something missing in my life... A void, unexplainable by words, (well at least for me). I'm constantly trying to enjoy life, and have been successful in the past weeks, but i just can't shake this feeling of emptiness... I just wish for a significant other in my life, someone i can share my happiness with, someone i can tell my feelings to, someone who is willing to deal with all my faults... I'd treat her the best... i would always be there for her... i would give her any advice to the best of my ability... I'd love her, and be dedicated to none other than her...

I'm so happy with my life right now, i just have that tiny part of me that just feels so lonely...

The Next Morning

2008-01-14T01:52:52Z

Well, i feel a lot better today... sorta...

I had a dream, that i woke up and asked what time it was, and bing and pi said it was 4 in the afternoon, and i was like "OMG!!!" Then my cell phone rang, and it woke me up. I was a little hung over, but i answered it anyways. Turns out they needed me to watch the store... so i did.

Tilt wasn't so bad, i just didn't feel like getting up in the morning.

Now i'm here at the kong house, watching crazy asian movies. Pretty cool i must say.

Man, last night was such a cool night. I had three bottles of red stripe, a shot of tequilla petrone, and a shot of vodka. First time i ever got drunk and it felt good. I remember last night pretty well, and i often hear about people blacking out when they are drunk. Do people remember what happens when they are drunk? Cause i did... Maybe i just didn't get drunk enough... I can't wait till next time.

EFeelinsg

2008-01-13T06:47:50Z

Wow, tonight i think i finally got drunk for the first time... it feels awesome. I ai't ever beren drunk before. I grew a liking to this girl jesikah3, whom i've known for about 2 years. Last night, i told this girl how i felt about her, but shes is still healing from her last relationships and i wonder, i love her smile, and her personality and i wanna knowwhat is it that draws me to troubled girls. I fell in love with deanndra, who was troubled. I didn't know she was till after started dating her. and now i am fallingh for this girl. jesikah, who last night i just found out was troubled... i just wanna know, what is it that draws me to troubled women. God, i'n too drunk to finish this entry.... it feels good, i feel like i'm falling for jesikah... i never knew being drunk could feel so good... i'm falling even more in love withe jesikah kaye lehouillier (i think thats how you spell her name).... pay no attention to this entry...

Why is it so hard?

2007-11-07T03:16:54Z

Why is it so damn hard to move on with life? I miss coming home to someone i love that loves me back. I miss thinking about a future with this person. I miss the feeling of someone always there by your side.

How do I breathe, yeah.
How do I breathe, yeaaaah.

It feels so different being here,
I was so next to being next to you,
Life for me is not the same,
There's no one to turn to.
I don't know why I let it go too far,
Starting over it's so hard.
Seems like everywhere I try to go,
I keep thinking of you.

I just had a wake up call,
Wishing that I never let you fall,
Baby you were not to blame at all.
When I'm the one that pushed you away.
Baby if you knew I cared,
You'd have never went nowhere,
Girl I should've been right there.

How do I breathe,
Without you here by my side?
How will I see,
When your love brought me to the light?
Where do I go,
When your heart's where I lay my head?
When you're not with me,
How do I breathe?
How do I breathe?

Girl I'm losin' my mind.
Yes I made a mistake.
I thought that you would be mine.
Guess the joke was on me.
I miss you so bad I can't sleep.
I wish I knew where you could be.
Another dude is replacing me,
God, this can't be happening.

I just had a wake up call,
Wishing that I never let you fall,
Baby you were not the blame at all.
When I'm one that pushed you away
Baby if you knew I cared,
You'd have never went nowhere,
Girl I should've been right there.

How do I breathe,
Without you here by my side?
How will I see,
When your love brought me to the light?
Where do I go,
When your heart's where I lay my head?
When you're not with me,
How do I breathe?
How do I breathe?

I should have brought my love home girl
Baby I ain't perfect you know
The ground has got a tight hold
Girl come back to me
Cause girl you made it hard to breathe
When you're not with me

Tell me how do I breathe,
Without you here by my side?
How will I see,
When your love brought me to the light?
Where do I go,
When your heart's where I lay my head?
When you're not with me,
How do I breathe?
How do I breathe?

God it makes me laugh...

2007-11-05T18:56:06Z

I Find This Amusing

Sigh of Relief

2007-11-02T15:05:49Z

Yesterday, i saw Deanndra at work, and we had quite a long talk. After that, i felt so much better, and now i really feel that she and i are good friends. I feel so much better because i was able to talk to her.

Well tonight, good luck for highland high school. I'm going to their football game to watch football and the marching band.

Plans...

2007-11-01T15:57:31Z

I need to do something this saturday with someone or people. What are you people doing this saturday? If nothing i guess i'll go to my 2econd home called "Tilt". I want to hang out with somebody, or talk to somebody.

What to Do?

2007-10-31T14:59:20Z

I'm feelin nerdy for halloween... I'll just go to tilt after UNM and play Pump It Up all evening. I'll keep myself busy to keep my mind of things.

Slowly but Surely...

2007-10-31T05:35:35Z

Well, i'm trying my best to ease my pain. I've been at pi's house every night since sunday, and slowly but surely, i'm starting to feel better. Still feeling empty... dont wanna be alone. If anyone is doing anything. I'd like to tag along if i'm able to. Depends on my homework and such. I wanna talk to someone or hang out with someone.

Alone...

2007-10-30T08:30:52Z

How do you get rid of the emptiness you feel in life? I go to pi's house to hang out with my nephews and play games and stuff. That helps fill in a bit of the space.

When everyone sleeps, i come back home, not knowing what to do. I feel like i'm going crazy because i don't know how to stop feeling alone... God it makes me wanna cry... Deanndra...

What to do...

2007-10-29T17:45:26Z

It has been a long time since i ever touched livejournal. Ever since that one day a long time ago when i lost my internet connection at my old house, i've rarely been on myspace and completely shunned livejournal. Now I have internet in the apartment i live in, but i've let myspace completely pass me as a part of my important life and i was thinking of returning to what i considered being able to communicate with my friends on a more personal level, something people call, livejournal.

I've been yearning to come back to livejournal... i was planning to post again to be in touch with my friends... Never would i have thought to return to livejournal because i felt alone. When i was with Deanndra, it felt like a void in my body was filled, like i could go on with the rest of my life if it were only me and Deanndra in the world. She was the most amazing person I could have found in life.

We first met our junior year in high school, at the Zia Marching Band Competition 2005. She was the drum major at Del Norte High School. When i was introduced to her at that time, she was in some "fiesta"? outfit and had a ton of make-up on. It was raining that day so all that make-up was smeared and such. But when i talked to her, it was the best feeling i've ever felt. Like this immense "emo-ness" disappeared from existence within my body. At the time, looking past the costume and the make-up, i thought she was the most beautiful person i ever laid eyes on.

She had a great personality. Very playful, but can also be serious when the situation arose. I felt confused growing up and i felt like i couldn't talk to anyone because my parents weren't fluent in english and i wasn't fluent in laos. I knew i could talk to her and she would always listen. I try to tell her everything i feel, even if it would hurt her. I was very shy and always felt sad. She wasn't afraid to tell me if something was wrong with me. Of course, the way i was before, i took things too personal. The things i went through with her eventually made me a stronger person. She changed me over a period of two years, and i love who i am now.

She makes me feel special. She makes me feel welcome. She makes me feel like living life. When i'm around her, i feel complete and i feel like i need nothing else in life. I don't know how to express the way she makes me feel. It's unique... i don't know what to say. How do you explain something that feels so great? All i know is that no one else can make me feel the way that Deanndra does. She is one of a kind to me and i would do anything for her. I'll always be there for her. I love her with all my heart.

Our two year anniversary is Tuesday, October 30, 2007. Deanndra and I broke up on Saturday, October 27, 2007. I've never felt more alone in my life... Now i'm on livejournal, because i feel like i don't have many other options to turn to...

I'm glad i have my family there for me, but i miss Deanndra...

Conflict...

2006-05-18T04:44:04Z

U ever find out something bad, then it turns worse cause of another persons actions? Yeah, today sucked cause of that... If people know about cathy and her baby...

On the plus side, i got the solo for "Seasons Of Love" for graduation tomorrow. I'm recording it, then putting it on myspace. I'm nervous...

No more to say...

Spring Trip

2006-05-17T03:15:28Z

Well, spring trip was fun... That's all you need to know, except my awesome pics and videos.

And yeah, solo for "Seasons Of Love" at Graduation is nerve wrecking, cause i don't know if i got the solo or not, and if i did, singing in front of people... ahhh!!!!

Too Many Commitments!!!

Band and chorus both at graduation.

I hate Rhonda from work, she yelled at me, and got mad cause the manager let me go on break before her, even though i asked first, and whatnot. The bitch still takes it out on me, i swear if she was manager, i would quit in a heartbeat.

Well, i think thats it.

Eating CheezIt's

2006-05-02T04:59:17Z

Game room is pretty fun!!!

CheezIt's Chile Queso flavor is delicious.

Cant wait for my spring trip next week, to Cali.

I can wait for the double concert coming up on tuesday(tomorrow), with the chorus at 5:30 or so, straight to the band concert at 7:00 or so.

Darn, life is too hard these days...

Peter piper...

2006-05-01T04:41:31Z

Umm, today i found out i am being trained into the game room for peter piper pizza today, which was the only job i really wanted when i started, but now that i got it, i dont really know how to react. Its cool that i have it, but i really dont feel any different now. How does it feel to some people when it comes to you wanting something for a long time, but when you finally get it, you dont react in the same manner, is it just me?

Another Day, yeah...

2006-04-28T04:22:30Z

So, went to school, tired of cleaning in 2nd period. 3rd, our choir teachers cannot really conduct well. 4th period, i dont like working... its hard..., especially when you have no choice but to hear The Big mouth who cant shut up at all during class... "Mykel Brown" Luckily, i had my trusty headphones with good music.

Imma miss my gf, shes leaving for 3 days to Colorado.

I got 4 free pizzas, YEAH!!!

I'm done now.

Cool, I'm back...

2006-04-27T04:32:02Z

So... Cool... I'm Back...

Well, Today we came up sort of with a songlist for the concert in June, and its wicked awesome so far. I Went to work and it sucked so far like always. I'm getting a new job making sushi with my sister for $8.00 an hour. YEAH!!!!

Beatmania IIDX Is awesome, but my songs on the CD Dont really work well...

Rhonda from work with the two akward front teeth that looked like they point to her tongue to tell you where her bad breath is coming from, is a real dumbshit...

I hate working wednesday and thursday at Peter Piper Pizza, and I Hate the 10 a.m.- 9 p.m. shift i get screwed with on saturday.

Met that new employee at work named Suzie.

Miss Seeing my friends... and never getting to hang out with them.

Hate it when people stop being your friend over something dumb.

Silent Hill Is a Freakin Awesome Movie!!!

Being an aide for Mr. Springer sucks badly, its more like being a slave than an aide.

I Think thats it... Yeah Thats It.

Final Destination 3

2006-02-10T04:46:29Z

God, that was a good movie, and the best part was... IT WAS FREE!!!! Compliments of Pi!!!! Thanks again Pi.

Plaxo...

2006-02-09T02:02:11Z

Well, i've been recently getting weird emails, saying that certain people use something called plaxo. I guess its this thing, sorta like myspace, and these people that are using plaxo, are a couple of people i know. Tell me if any of you people use plaxo, cause i'm really like questioning whether this is some kind of scam or not.

Robert Rand
Bill Gould
Brett Humbert
Sunny (i dont know your last name... sorry)

Inservice tomorrow...

2006-02-03T06:49:22Z

So yeah, No school tomorrow...

Today, went to school, and everything seemed normal. Chorus was actually fun.... wow

No jazz band today cause our director wanted to work with our rhythm section because they really suck right now...

Went home, and messed around until Bing came over. From there, we both went to mcdonalds across from the mall, and i got chesseburgers and mcchicken sandwiches. Went to tilt afterwards.

Then hung out with my gf and Alan, and Nikki. We went to billards... and pool is harder than you think...

Ate at Dennys afterwards, and now....

Now im home

The End